Wednesday, June 26, 2013

Better Late Than Never

Jeez. I haven't posted for a while. I guess that's what happens when you're lazy and do nothing but read and lay around and walk dogs for the whole 8 hours a day you're awake. But today, that changed. Today, I got a job. Finally. It's nothing special, but hey, a job is a job, and I'm so glad I have it. Not only because I'll have money (obviously), but because it's gonna get me back into the mentality of being productive, mature, and flexible with my time and life. And I really need to work on being able to have that mentality even when I don't have a job, so I can get other things done that I need to do, or even want to do. I'm turning over a new leaf today and I promise that from here on out, I will be a better person to myself and others, and that I will get my life back to the way I want it, and mold a better future for myself. I hope this inspires you to improve your own life as well.

(again, sorry for the cheesy post, but I really needed to write it out)

Friday, May 31, 2013

Welcome Home

Coming home from college for
the summer
is supposed to be
Relaxing.
Leisurely.
Comforting.
Breezy.
Except for me, it's not.
At least not for the moment.
It's as if I've been
sucked back into the life
I had before.
Stressful.
Tense.
I don't
Want to stress about
Work.
Jobs.
Careers.
I know
How to get a
Job.
I'm being insisted
That I'm doing it
Wrong.
And I hate it.


Saturday, May 11, 2013

Identity

Identity.
Permanent yet constantly changing.
You see, you'll always identify
Youself with something
With someone
As something
As someone
But what or who you identify yourself with or as
Changes everyday.
Who do you want to be?
Who are you today?

Wednesday, May 8, 2013

Almost Summer

It's almost summer.
It's almost carefree nights and bonfires.
It's almost tan skin and long days and firefly nights.
It's almost glow sticks and freezies and picinics.
It's almost summer.
Almost.

Thursday, March 21, 2013

Profound Thought?

I've had an interesting past couple of weeks. Stressful, relaxing, overwhelming, exciting, frustrating, and pleasant are just a few words to describe the past handful of days. I've done a bit of self-reflecting and looking forward into my future and what it entails. I know, people always say, "don't worry about the future, enjoy the present" but you have to think of your future every now and then. If you don't let your mind wander into the future for a bit, how will you get through the present? What could keep you going day by day if you don't have some inkling of a thought about what could happen tomorrow, or the next day, the next week, month, year, decade? It's okay to worry about your future every now and then. Heck, it's good to just worry every now and then. Worrying means you care. But don't give yourself "worry warts", as my wonderful best friend says. Just, take life and all it entails in moderation. Pace yourself, pace your life, and then you will end up exactly where you want to be.


I don't know why, but like all of my entries end up having cheesy life quotes. My apologies for my corniness.

Saturday, February 16, 2013

Growing Up

Growing up isn't easy by any means. When you're a kid, growing up is all you want to do. You pretend to be a fire fighter, or a doctor, or a teacher. You want to be an adult and you don't realize how much you will miss being a kid. Being a kid means the biggest worry you have is when will your favorite cartoon be on next, or where  you put your crayons last. But someday you have to grow up and you begin to do that when you least want to. You go through tough times, fighting with your family, losing friends, losing hope and happiness. Your worries get bigger, and your sense of adventure gets shoved away by your insecurities. Growing up isn't easy, and it never will be. But that doesn't mean it's impossible. Facing the struggles and conquering the fears that you have when you get older and having new experiences will only make you stronger. Growing up gives you the opportunity to change your life, or even start it over. Every day you are growing up, and every day is a fresh start. So don't dwell on the past, don't dwell on what has ended. Instead, start something new. Grow into a new you.


"Your eyes must do some raining, if you're ever gonna grow." -Bright Eyes (Conor Oberst)

Monday, January 28, 2013

Note to Self

Life is full of changes.
It's full of fears, worries, hopes, dreams.
Life is full of asking questions and seeking answers, and not knowing which path to take, or when.
Life is full of uncertainty, full of mistakes.

Everything is happening right now, beyond your own control. Anything and everything is taking place around you, within you, beside  you, and far away from you. Just let it happen.

Let life happen.